Friday, July 31, 2009

He didn't get it...

Yeh, you heard me right. Brent didn't get Chief this year. Hopefully next year, I was more disappointed for him, I think than he was. Though he was upset over it, with everything he does for work, and for his men, and his early EP evaluation, he just doesn't understand what more he could do, to get chosen. It's just crazy. Anyways, maybe next year he'll get it! We're still waiting on to hear about the Tennessee job. Maybe we still have a chance for that....

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

My Sister, My Brother and I

Growing up, my sister and my brother, depsite our differences, still loved one another. I miss being younger and not having a worry in the world. I grew up very fast, with my parents going through a divorce and me helping raise my brother, I was grown at 12 or 13 yrs old. I am not complaining. It taught me alot and made me appreciate more than what most 13 yrs old do. I tend to go to go memory lane alot, and wanted to share some photos. These are a couple of my favorite photos, some of the very FEW we have together.

Back when I was 17 or 18 yrs old.....(around 1997-1998?)


And this one was taken a few years ago.... (summer 2007?)


Sunday, July 26, 2009

It's hot...

Wow, the sun was out all day, and it looked great out there, but the humid was terrible. It was so high you just really couldn't be comfortable out there. It got cloudy, and cooled down some, so we got in our walking shoes and headed out the door. We did a 30 minute walk, with Brent jogging out in front of me, and coming back to finish the walk with me. Man... 30 minutes and I came in sweating, from everywhere. Goodness it's hot. If my knee wasn't killing me I would have pushed myself even further. But I'm doing this to feel better and get my weight under control before I blow up like a whale. It's been really hard to keep it under control.

I've started the whole not eating after nine thing, no caffiene after nine, and I can't say that is helping, but it definitely isn't hurting me any. So it's a good start. I've been doing that for almost 3 or 4 weeks now. So.. now it's time to implement(spelling?) a bit more in to my stradegy. So I started last week getting back on the wii fit. I did it three days last week, doing the steps. This week we've started walking. I want to do 30 minutes of walking three times a week and fit in my wii fit. Eventually when I get use to that, I will fit in more walking time, maybe after cools down fit in some bike riding. I want to work my way up, not kill myself straight out of the gate.

I'm hoping I can get motivated and stay motivated and actually make something happen. If I can just lose a few pounds here and there, and half get it under control, maybe it will help our chances or starting a family. I've not been told that it was a concern, my weight that is, but I just want to give it a shot. Just to keep it under control, more than anything. I have a goal of losing 16 pounds by September 1st, I dont' think it will happen, that is a high goal, but I will settle for a few pounds off...

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Ky Army National Guard

Well, my brother joined the Ky Army National Guard right at a year ago. He completed some schooling and got his GED and thankfully is finally getting to leave for boot camp. After alot of trouble and time, he's finally been given a date. He leaves soon, and will go thru boot camp and AIT, then will probably be doing some training with this group just in time to be deployed. He isn't sure yet, if he's going to get deployed, we'll know more later. He is doing boot camp in Ft. Leonardwood, MO. I plan on attending boot camp graduation tho Brent won't be able to make it. I plan on being there. Hopefully this will help him mature and do something with his life, rather than waste it away in "No Where, Kentucky". I'm just so happy he's finally going to get to do what he signed up for a year ago!

Keep him in your thoughts or prayers, which ever you believe. I just hope he does great and if he is deployed, that is makes it home safely!

On another note, we should know in a week or so, if Brent got Chief or not. I can't wait to find out, I hope this is his year! So much could open up for us this year, if he picks it up! Keep your fingers crossed... if he doesn't, it's not the end of the world, we'll be okay, but I'm hoping he gets it.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Officially 19 months now...

Yeh, you read that correctly. It's officially been 19 months now, that Brent and I have been TTC'ing. I could probably count the months, before the first deployment, and the months, between the first and second deployment. But I won't. That would only add up more months, and make it even more depressing. But, officially, it's been 19 months now. He's has his check ups, and everything is okay with him. I've had my check ups, and I've been told, there really doesn't seem to be an answer on why we've not gotten pregnant yet. I show no signs of cysts, no signs of any scar tissues from any infections, what so ever. I have healthy, normal ovaries, and great egg supply. So there just isn't any reasons for it to not be happening.

It's just a bit discouraging. Alot of people say it will happen when it will happen. To stop stressing over it. But I've done research, and thinking and worrying about getting pregnant, has nothing to do with not getting pregnant. So it's okay for me to think about it and wonder and just question why. I try not to, but when others around me are having babies, and getting pregnant. It's a bit hurtful. As joyous as those moments are, it's painful too. I can't wait till we can start our own family.

What bothers me the most I think, is that everything is normal and regular, and yet there is no answers, and it's just not happening. I know in time, we will get to start a family. It just depends on how and when. Do we wait and see if it happens soon, or do we wait and hope it happens, and it not happen for another 18 months or more. Or do we take the next step? What is the next step? There is IUI, IVF(both of which are invasive and fairly expensive) or adoption. There are many choices, and just figuring out which one is best, is the hard part. But right now, we're just at a stand still. We're at a point of it's not happening, but what do we do next. I want to wait and let it happen naturally, but it doesnt' seem to be happening that way, so I don't know. Anyways, I just wanted to let it all out and get it off my chest. I have tried to talk about it, with others, but it's hard or they don't have time, or they have their own issues. So, it is just nice to get it off my chest.

Please keep us in your prayers, or just think about us, and make some wishes. Which ever are your beliefs. We appreciate anything that come our way.


Saturday, July 11, 2009

Black & white...

It's hard to get floral shots, that look good in black & white. Once in a while I get a shot that I like. I really need to get new flowers in my flower beds. Haha...


Here is another 'in color' shot.


Hopefully I will discover new things to photograph. The owner of the field next to us, come thru and cut down all his weeds, up next to the road, cleaning off the property line. That is where I got all of my berry, thorn, and odd bug shots. All of that is gone now. And we seem to have a 6 foot pet that likes to slither around and he's chased me a time or two and quite frankly, I don't care anything for him. We normally just see it in April/May time frame, once and that is it. But we see him a couple of times a week now. And I just don't like it. So needless to say, I don't walk around laying on the ground and taking photos anymore. I kind of stick close to the house. So.. for now, it's yellow floral shots. Haha..

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

A little fresh air...

Today, Brent came home from work and was outside working on the Jetta. He's in the process of changing the transmission fluid and filter. He's hoping that will straighten out the shifting problem we're having with it. Anyways, I stayed cooped up in the house all day, when I'm alone. One, it's too hot to go outside in the middle of the day, when we have no shade, and two, I just don't like going outside and walking around by myself. It's just boring. But while Brent was working on the car today, I got my camera out, and walked around taking photos. I took a good 100 photos, and only liked a couple of them, and still not 100% satisfied, but they work.


Tuesday, July 7, 2009

R.I.P. Michael Jackson

Today was Michael Jackson's Memorial, at Staples Center. I know, everyone is getting a little tired of hearing this and hearing that, and that there are more people in the world that are deserving of a wonderful memorial. We have men and woman fighting for our country, that don't get recognized enough, and we have their so's and loved ones, that don't get enough credit. But with all that said, it's still gotta be said, Micheal Jackson, will be missed.

I grew up as a child, listening to him. I can remember being only a few years old and doing the moonwalk, across the concrete floor in my granny's cinder block house. I remember growing up, and being in middle school and dancing to "Beat it" with a broom. Needless to say, I was suppose to be cleaning house, not dancing around with a broom. I ended up breaking a light fixture. Scared I might get into trouble when my dad got home, I swapped my 'just fine' light fixture from my bedroom, with the 'broken shattered' one from the living room. I just knew, my dad would never notice. Well.. I was wrong.. I think it took a day or two, but he ended up figuring it out. He got onto me, but I didn't get into too much trouble. Surprisingly. Thankfully. There were times, when one of my friends would have a birthday slumber party, and we would do a "Thriller" night. We always had to watch Thriller. I have alot of good memories.

Michael's music is some of my favorite. I can admit, that growing up, and even now.. (yes I have some of his music), if no one is watching, and I'm feeling down, his music will lift me up and get me to dancing. So. With all that said, I was a bit upset to hear he had passed away. Life is life, people are going to pass, it's sad, but it's life. But he's the KING. (king of pop). But he's not ever suppose to die, he's suppose to live forever, and I think with his music, he will. He will always have a special place in my heart.

R.I.P Michael Jackson

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Sunday, July 5, 2009

Up too early...

Yes, it's 8:45 am, and I am up way too early. I've been up since about 6:30. Haha... I know, I know, alot of you do earlier than that, and trust me, I have in my past, I use to do alot of overtime working, and such. But not working, I normally get to sleep in. A little bit anyways. Well, Brent woke up late for work this morning, after I attempted to get him up twice and he didn't get up, he woke up late, so I drove him to work so he wouldn't have to deal with parking and riding a van, which would take even longer. We got there, 30 minutes before he had to be there, and wouldn't you know it, he didn't have his badge. So, we drove all the way home. And I am still not quite awake. What a morning. LoL.

I know most of you have more adventure than that, day in and day out, but honestly our lives are calm, pretty drama free. So anyways, I am just blogging to be blogging. I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July holiday!!! I know back home in KY it rained and stormed pretty severly, but here it didn't do anything. But I hope everyone made the best of it!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Happy 4th of July...

Happy 4th of July to everyone. I hope you're all doing something, sitting by the pool, BBQ'ing, going out to see the fireworks, or just staying in with the family. We went out to see Transformers 2 and stopped for Mexican on the way home, today it's working day. Well, Brent is working on the garden. Getting it tilled and cleaned up and watered. It needed it. I am thinking about getting out in the pool today. He wants to go fishing, but I don't know. I think I might pass on it today and just be plain lazy. Float around the pool for a couple of hours. Maybe go fishing later... I don't know.

My family is up in Oklahoma, visiting my sister. They had the baby for a couple of weeks and drove her home, and are visiting for the holiday weekend. I am glad my sister gets to family, tho I wish they were here instead. Haha..

Anyways, I hope everyone is having a great family get together!!!!